I've been doing some solo counseling for the past few months. It's something I wanted to do on my own to explore my decisions and behavior, which seem to fall into a very specific pattern. While I certainly haven't reached any sort of "solution" or different route to take in my life, there have been moments of enlightenment. I recently ordered three books to take with me on my trip to Italy: Receiving Love, Daring Greatly, and The Four Agreements. I can't wait to explore these books on my quest for self-understanding. There was a little blurb on The Four Agreements that really made me stop and think.
Be Impeccable With Your Word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
Don't Take Anything Personally: Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.
Don't Make Assumptions: Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama.
Always Do Your Best: Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.
I'm eager to dig into this book and read more about these four topics.
I'm not sure what it is, specifically, that I'm wanting to achieve from counseling. There are times where I really question myself and my choices. I wonder what drives them. Is there an underlying meaning? Is there something missing? Is there something I'm trying to fix? And then other times, I think, you know what? This is really just me. I am who I am, and I really don't need to explain to others why I am this way. I don't owe anyone an explanation. This is MY life. It's something I struggle with on a daily basis. Obviously I'm wanting some sort of answer - I just don't know where it's going to come from.